22 July 2018
T-1 : Malam sebelum berangkat ke Madinah
Malam ni, air mata seperti tak boleh berhenti tika ini. Irfan di sebelah dah lena dibuai mimpi, abang2 pun dah tidur..hanya mama yg tgh feeling2 syahdu mengenang hari esok. Irfan ckp kpd saya tadi, irfan tak sedih sebab nek umi nak jaga irfan. Kalau irfan nak susu nek umi buat, kalau irfan nk eat nek umi suap, kalau irfan 'yak' nek umi wash, esok mama balik mama suaplah irfan okey. Masya Allah so clever boy, tapi hati saya sgt tersentuh bila ayat2 itu dilontarkan oleh anak kecil seusia 3 tahun...sori sayang i need to leave u for a while!
Esok, hari yg sgt2 kami nantikan. Ramai bertanya, apa perasaan menjadi tetamu Allah? Saya jawab..gembira sgt, terharu, sebak sgt2...sebab Allah sudi jemput hamba yg penuh dgn dosa ini ke tanah suci..ke rumah Allah..tpt yg sgt membahagiakan bagi mereka yg pernah sampai ke sana. Allahuakbar..nikmat terbesar yg kami pernah terima, x dpt digambarkan..sbb tu sgt sebak.
Dalam masa yg sama, rasa sedih sebab terpaksa meninggalkan anak2 di bawah jagaan umi..terpaksa menyusahkan umi..walau saya tahu pengorbanan seorg ibu tersangatlah ikhlas, namun sebagai anak, saya tetap sedih..sedih sgt2.
Moga Allah permudahkan urusan umi dan keluarga saya yg ditinggalkan di sini. Saya hanya berserah dan bertawakal kpd Allah utk pelihara dan jaga mereka, kerana Allah lah sebaik2 penjaga buat mereka.
Saya sedih, tapi saya sgt2 tak sabar nak ke sana..mengabdikan diri hanya kepadaNya, fokus kpd amal ibadat dan melupakan hal duniawi buat seketika. Perjalanan dan moment yg amat2 dinantikan, anugerah dan nikmat paling besar yg Allah beri kpd kami insya allah.
Doakan urusan kami dipermudahkan dan dikurniakan haji yg mabrur. Saya harap saya dpt share our hajj journey sekembali ke sini nanti. Ya Allah, mmg saya x sabar sgt! Terima kasih Allah!
14 July 2018
Jemputan Istimewa daripada Allah
I always ask myself, how can Allah be so kind to me? He always listened, He always answered my prayers, and He always there when i need Him.
Menjadi tetamuNya, digelar dhuyufurrahman, Masha Allah layakkah aku?
There are so much things that i want to share with you, but time does not permit. Hopefully when i come back i would be able to share and document my experience, before & during Hajj.
I am still in the process of writing my doa...doing it bit by bit, type then save, type then save :p I'm on page 6 already, didnt realize that i have a lot of things to ask from Allah. Each time i write, i'll cry, hence why it took me days (in fact weeks!) to complete my doa. Personalizing and customizing your doa are very important, you felt closer to Him, as each time you read the line it touches your heart..it makes you feel so low, so hina, so timid, in the eyes of Allah.
Ya Allah, aku bersyukur kepadaMu kerana engkau telah menjemputku dan suamiku ke tanah sucimu, kau sentiasa memakbulkan doaku, kau memilih kami daripada ribuan dan jutaan hambamu. Kau terimalah kami sebagai tetamuMu yg istimewa, tetamuMu yg paling istimewa, tetamuMu yg paling istimewa. Terimalah kami Ya Allah, permudankanlah urusan kami Ya Allah, terimalah amal ibadat kami Ya Allah, ampunkanlah kami Ya Allah.
Sahabat2 yg saya sayangi, doakan perjalanan dan urusan manasik haji kami di permudahkan, doakan agar keluarga kami yang ditinggalkan di sini sentiasa dipelihara dan dipermudahkan segala urusan, doakan kami selamat kembali dan beroleh haji yg mabrur. Saya akan sentiasa mendoakan sahabat2 semua, saya akan bacakan satu persatu setiap kiriman doa yg diberi kpd saya, mudah-mudahan Allah berkati segala urusan dan perancangan kita semua. Allah Maha Mendengar, Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang, do not stop praying, do not lose hope, for He always listen and be with us.
Salam sayang,
Yati & Pruzz
~1439H hajj~
06 November 2017
Hello November!
The clock ticks very fast and without realizing we enter into November already. I can still remember we (read: the Nz gals minus our hubs) were so busy doing our last minute checks before we finally flew to the land of the middle earth, on this November two years ago. November last year I was so busy with my back-to-back pitching while at the same time attending the umrah course and tried to finish reading the book, so that I am well-prep for the spiritual journey. Alhamdulillah everything turns out well, though I had a very bad stomach cramping on the 1st day we landed on the Holy land, the very same day we completed our 1st umrah wajib. Frankly I couldn’t remember the details now, blame it to my laziness, I should’ve documented my journey right after I got back to Malaysia.
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| my cheekiest lil' monster |
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| Ok don't be fooled with that sad-looking face, he's not tired at all trust me! |
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| the middle and younger brother, they can become best friends and turn into rival in split seconds! |
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| Now u know siapa yg letih, tgk muka si abang yg mencuka tuh :p |
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| our obligatory shot - hotel's mirror! |
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| 1st pit stop, before reaching to that 'precious' Sky Bridge..haha |
11 October 2017
Cheesy Chicken Fritters
2 pcs chicken breasts (diced), 1/2 cup flour, 2 eggs, 1 cup mozarella/cheddar cheese, 1/4 cup mayonnaise, diced capsicum, salt, black pepper. Can also add fresh chillis, diced carrots, shredded potato, onion, etc to your likings.
Pls try, they are so yummy!
Suitable to freeze as well.
09 October 2017
GP 21 Days Fitness Challenge
So 2 weeks had passed until it was launched. We had salsation, piloxing and tabata to date. Some were done after office hours, some during lunch hour. I noticed i need to take enough calories during lunch so that i can keep and sustain my energy level till the end of each exercise session. There was one day where i almost lost my breath and felt lack of o2 after the 1-hr piloxing session, lucky i didn't collapse haha.
Anyway, need to remember that for a balanced lifestyle it will always work at this ratio 80% eat: 20% exercise. To practice the 'eat clean' habit is easy, but to stay istiqamah like forever is the hardest, agree? I admit i fail at this part, for i cannot live without cakes and chocolates :p I can take wholemeal bread or Belvita biscuits for a week and forget about my usual nasi lemak dose, but to forgo cakes and chocolates is like to transform myself to a wholly different person altogether.
This is my body reading, for personal record.
25.9.2017:
Body weight: 51.1kg
% fat: 29.1
Visceral fat: 2
Muscle: 28.1
Body age: 32
kcal: 1147
BMI: 19.5
2.10.2017:
Body weight: 50.2kg (i think because i puasa the day before)
% fat: 28.8
Visceral fat: 2
Muscle: 28.2
Body age: 31
kcal: 1134
BMI: 19.1
So the program will end next week, but we're going for a short holiday next week. Holiday means makan-makan and breaching your strict adherence to eating clean. Konfem takde harapan nak menang lah nih! :)
But again we also need to remember, you are what you choose to be, if you want to be happy, do what makes you happy.
08 September 2017
Conversation with kids
He: Mama esok dtg tak?
Me: Ala taklah, kan baru je blk dr cuti. Nx wk boleh outing. Kenapa nk mama dtg..rindu ke?
He: Takdela..dtg ajar Maths ke mcm aritu. Td blaja theorem pitagoras.
Me: Emm idlan tanyala kengkawan lain yg terer tu, ada kn..tanya diorang yer. Nnt paham la tu...
Me: Ok mama! (sounds cool n relax as always)
* This has been circling my mind quite a number of times. Probably one of the cons of sending him to boarding school, i cant be there for him at all times. But on a positive note, he will learn to be more independent, responsible n survive on his own. Sedih. Full stop.
#2. After the younger two were done with their Maths revision tonight.
We talked about so many things, from syaitan to iblis yg refuse to obey to Nabi Adam, how iblis promised to sesatkan manusia and heret us to neraka, syafaat Rasulullah, how Allah destroyed kaum Luth and their belongings, few things that they read in their Science book but were actually already explained in Quran like bumi beredar mengelilingi matahari, bulan beredar keliling bumi, mlm dan siang, how Allah made gunung sebagai pasak bumi, sungai mengalir n suburkan tanaman, hujan turun dr awan utk suburkan bumi and finally tercerita pasal satu laut yg mama dh lupa nama dia tapi air dia ada 2 color yg slightly berbeza dan ada garisan pemisah antara keduanya. I googled n showed them the pic and they were both awed n blurted out "hebatnya Allah!" Haa kannn mmglah Allah hebat semua Dia dh explain dlm Quran dan ada jawapan. Esok bila dh besar bole baca tafsir..memcm korang jumpa nnt!
Firas: hishhh kalo firas citer kt kawan ni mesti derang x percaya.
Me: Kalau nk kasi derang percaya, firas kena quote surah apa ayat berapa lah 😅 Nah cuba igt nih 🙃
#conversationwithkids
10 January 2017
Things change, life goes on
Last night after Isya' hubby said...rasa sunyi plak rumah nih.
Firas said..rindulah abg idlan takde.
Asked Irfan..where's abg Idlan?
Then we helped him to answer...abg idlan pegi asraaamaaa.
So now when we repeat the same question to him..he will answer...aaa aaa maa!
Mama rindulah kt Idlan. Mlm td ok je lagi, tp bila solat pagi nih..aduhai sayu plak bila teringat.
08 January 2017
2017 - Idlan, Form 1, time flies!
My last post was about his trial xm, and tomorrow he's going to a boarding school already, a completely different phase of life i must say! Cpt masa berlalu kan.
2016 was truly a blessed year for us the whole family. Though we didnt go for any overseas travel, Allah has bestowed us with so many great things i couldnt mentioned enough.
Idlan performed well in his upsr and psra exam, one of the best gifts he gave to us apart from being a very obedient and responsible 'abg sulung'. For this, i am very thankful to Allah for He chooses us to be the parents to this lil boy, and ofcoz to his other siblings.
Firas also ended his Year 2 in style, made way to the stage again together with Idlan. He recently told us he wanted to go to Oxford, i was like wowwww this guy knew the existence of Oxford U!!
Ammar had his kindy convo, and now in Year 1. He literally cried almost everyday n refused to enter into Kafa during the Dec's orientation that idlan n ustazah had to pull n carried him inside, but alhamdulillah no drama whatsoever on the 1st day of school last week. Lega mak!!
Irfan Faris my miracle baby is no longer a small baby. Alhamdulillah he grows well and healthy, and looks like he is completely recovered from laryngomalacia. His vocabs increases from mth to mth, i think i shouldnt worry much about his speech.
We ended 2016 with me n hubby went to perform our 1st umrah. All went well for us, and kids who were left here with nek umi and atok at Ampang for 12 days.
And finally on career side, i am now again undergo another round of job rotation, new unit new team bigger roles n responsibilities.
As i have always remind and tell myself, i was at my weakest point in 2015, but Allah has picked me up and blessed us with lots of good things in return after He tested us with Irfan's sickness. For that i must not forget Him, and must always put my faith in Him, in whatever undertakings.
I hope i can stay istiqomah in improving my relationship with Him, apart from always doing the best for my family n company.
Alhamdulillah terima kasih Ya Allah. Allahuakbar.
19 July 2016
Idlan and his trial exam
The blog has been left dormant for quite some time. And now i took the attempt to screenshot my IG post so that i can at least hv an archive for this one of the many important events in his life :)
30 March 2016
Sharing from today's tafsir class
First i thought i wanna jot down the notes in my diary, but hp was way much easier since i can always open n refer n share with my dear friends. Harap hp tahan lama n x corrupt :p
Sharing from today's tafsir class by Ustaz Abdullah Yassin:
Umur manusia ada 2 peringkat:
1. Dr lahir hingga mati
2. Dr mati hingga hari kiamat
# refer surah Yassin ayat 12
Lima peringkat alam bagi manusia:
Alam roh - rahim- dunia- barzakh/kubur - akhirat
Masa dlm peringkat kubur, kita masih boleh menambah pahala melalui 3 cara:
Amal jariah, doa dr anak yg soleh dan ilmu yg bermanfaat. Setelah di akhirat kelak, dah x boleh tambah pahala sbb tu hari pembalasan.
'Panjang umur' ertinya hidup diberkati Allah & mendpt anak yg soleh.
Siapa nk pjg umur dan murah rezeki, buatlah ihsan kpd ibu bapa.
Ibu bapa dpt pahala dr doa anak cucu mereka yg soleh. Maknanya doa dr anak soleh bukan dpt kpd ibu bapa je, tp pada atuk nenek moyang dan keturunannya. Jadi kalau dah takde anak, cth anak dh meninggal, didiklah cucu supaya jd soleh.
#refer surah Yassin ayat 12
27 March 2016
Red velvet for his 14-mo birthday
The strawberries are originally intended for a victoria sandwich cake, but majority wins. So red velvet it is then!
Hepi 14 months old Irfan sayang!!! Mama, abah dan abang2 sayangggg sgt kat Irfan.
Anyway we're going to a clinic this morning. It seems that his lip is a lil bit swollen from the previous operation procedure though he doesnt seems to be irritated by it. Harap x serius la huhu
24 March 2016
Tongue lip adhesion..and the reversal procedure
Now that his larynx has strengthen and he no longer has stridor and retractions when breathing, it is just about the time to release his tongue lip adhesion. Furthermore he already has 4 teeth on the upper gum and 'some' teeth on the lower part, which means his tongue needs to be detached from the lip so that he doesn't bite his own tongue.
The release of his tongue lip adhesion took place on last Monday, 21st March 2016. He went to OT in the morning, under full GA. It was his 3rd operation, and this time around i was the one that hold and accompanied him all the way to the OT room. The procedure was a success, despite him being cranky on the first 24 hrs post-op due to no fluid was allowed for several hours, and the fact that he can only take plain water or milk via a NG tube in the evening. He screamed his lungs out upon seeing his bottle, and the feeding process via his NG tube was really challenging. No solid was allowed at least for 48 hours, so that adds on to his crankiness.
Lucky it was just an overnight stay, he got discharged on the very next evening, that after me having a hard time trying to persuade and convince his surgeon that Irfan is ok and fit to be discharged. Of course his lip and tongue are still a little bit swollen with stitches, and we got home with 2 different types of antibiotics.
Irfan is really a new baby now. To our eyes and his brothers, he looks like a different baby altogether. Whenever he smiles, the 4 white teeth (which is previously hidden by his tongue) at the bottom gum is now visible. He bites hubby a lot on his 1st day at home after discharged, probably 'lepas geram', feeling curious and just figured the fact that 'oh so now i have something that makes chewing and biting more interesting!'. I am happy to see him able to bite his biscuits easily. I feel more encouraged to look up for new recipes and introduces more textures into his solids, without worrying him get chokes and vomits.
Most importantly, I am grateful for Allah has made it easier for him to live his life as days pass by. Any person that see him today would never thought how rough his life has been before. How he had struggled for air just to breath, how miserable his early days for not being able to sleep even for more than 10 minutes, how he continuously wanted to breastfeed because the calories he were getting burned quickly and used up a lot for breathing only, how he had spent 3 mths in the hospital after his 1st op and got series of infection, how he was put on a CPAP o2 machine to aid in his breathing, how myself and the nurses need to do suctions at least 3x a day to take out the unexplainable lots of secretions from his body, how he was put on an NG tube for feeding all the time and not being able to take anything orally, how he was put under several physiotherapist to massage his whole body due to being bed-ridden for too long, and how miserable my life has been for being away from hubby and my other 3 growing kids, looking pale and down almost all the time since the doctors were unable to give answers and hope on when Irfan is going to recover. Those uncertainties are painful to swallow, almost unimaginable to digest, which sometimes i even hope to temporarily 'pengsan' and shut down my body so that i don't have to remember all the pain.
To all my friends who are being tested, do not give up, gather your strength and always have faith in Him. Everything is coming from Him, and only to Him we return and ask. May Allah eases our ways in striving for barakah in this world and Hereafter.
Thank you all for your endless prayers, for the love and support showered to us, i can never repay your kindness and i always hope Allah will give you something in return for your kindheartedness. Amin.
Love,
-mama Irfan Faris-
16 March 2016
Tanam sendiri - celery dan ubi keledek!
Bismillah dan selawat byk2..dgn harapan menjadi. Kalau jadi mmg lompat bintang la saya!! Hehe
Steps google je..looks easy peasy but me and gardening do not hv a good chemistry based on history. So lets not put so much hope shall we?
I shall post the updates when the time is due. Till then~
Sayonara!!
12 March 2016
Me and my baking mojo
11 March 2016
Day 4: Twizel - Queenstown
Our routes for Day 4:
Twizel - Omarama - Wanaka- Cromwell - Queenstown.
Total distance approx 253km.
List of attractions:
1. Twizel - High Country Salmon
Very interesting! We got to feed the salmon for free, kids siap ulang-alik pegi amik makanan free tu tanpa segan silu :) There is a small cafe adjacent the salmon farm, which sells varieties of fresh salmon to the visitors. Hubby picked a small container of cold smoked salmon, $12. I am not a fan of sushi, this is my 1st time eating raw salmon but surprisingly it tastes delish!! mmg wajib beli kesimpulannya. Even our kids loved them.
We stopped here on our way to Wanaka. I assume this lake is not so famous, hence very few cars spotted on the highway. We even got to pose right in the center of the highway, tanpa segan silu :p
3. Lindis Pass
One of the most scenic view exists in South Island. Memang cantik sangat, tak dpt digambarkan. Bukit bukau yg berbalam dek pancaran sinar matahari, bunga kuning (rasanye rapeseed) merata-rata atas bukit, dan awan biru yg sangat cantikkk susah nak dpt kat KL! I even wondered why the sky in KL looks so pale dan kurang menyerlah as compared to NZ...maybe sebab pencemaran yg berleluasa kot?
4. Lake Wanaka
We arrived here around 12noon, matahari mmg tegak atas kepala but it was so windy and cool to the extend we decided to just have our packed lunch inside the car rather than sitting on a bench nearby the lake. Rasa nak terbang pon ada masa keluar dari kereta masa tu. Settle lunch, as usual amik gambar tepi lake, kids main baling2 batu. Mata ni puas melilau cari 'that wanaka tree yg glamer tu' tapi tak jumpa!! Tasik tu luas, maybe kena duduk kat spot yg lain baru bole jumpa 'that lonely wanaka tree'.
5. Puzzling World
Tempat wajib singgah di Wanaka, about 2km from Lake Wanaka. We bought the family pass combo deal $61 for entry to both the Illusions Room and Great Maze. Illusion Room tu mmg bole wat org pening pala, Ida Mizie sampai nak termuntah bila masuk dlm tu hehe. Bestla jugak Illusion Room ni, okla something different yg takde kat Mesia. Great Maze mmg hampeh, kami cam biasa tak berjaya nk khatam even 1 route, mmg fail sungguh bab maze nih! Dahla panas giler, carry si Irfan tu lagi, adoi macam nk patah pinggang. Last2 kami decide utk exit ikut Emergency Door hihi. Kids berpecah, sukahati berlari-larian dgn geng2 derang, ada yg berjaya...ada yg main tipu gak cam makpak depa :p Lepas berputus asa tak jumpa jln keluar, kami beramai2 kumpul kat luar tu utk amik group photo. Kebetulan kat sini ramai family yg berkumpul, so apelagi....group photo plsss! Mujur ramai photog professional yg ada dlm group kami :)























































