the surgery

Ok sumer, i'm back. The surgery was done with success. And he's now safely staying at home with his abah taking care of him today. Sayang, if u happen to read this one day, mama so sorry for not being able to stay besides u today, mama really cant afford to take any more leave. But u dont worry, am sure u know that your abah is really good and skillful at taking care of small baby like u, and maybe u dont remember that the person that took most care of u during the early days since u were born was ur great abah...he bathed u, changed u, cleaned u...etc etc...so mama guess that already justified my action though it was actually very hard for mama to step out of the house and leave u, lucky that the sesame street story that was playing on the tv somehow locked u in front of tv and mama can sneaked out without u even notice me hehe

The surgery took place on wed the 19th, as planned. Unlike any other patients, mama carried u all the way from the ward to the surgery theatre, instead of u being wheeled on the movable hospital bed. U cried your heart out when the time has came for mama to handed over u to the nurse, just before u entered the OT. That was around 8.45am. And mama, though has been trying so hard to withhold my tears and be strong, had finally broke into tears when seeing u crying and wailing for me. Mama's feeling that time, it was indescribable. Mama went out and joined abah inside the waiting room, recited yassin and doa for you. And about 915am, the nurse called us. Mama went inside to look for u, and that time the nurses was just about to put on your diapers. You look a bit drowsy and crying, and mama knows u were damn hungry and thirsty since u have been fasting for nearly 12 hours since 10pm the night before. After that mama carried you to the ward, and tried to sleep u since the nurse said u must be tired and drowsy because of the anaesthetic effect before. But u kept on crying non-stop, showing ur fingers towards the bottles and thermos containing water. Mama and abah, we both worked so hard to calm and comfort u but nonetheless we failed and u became wild and cried hysterically. The doc and nurse said u can only drink a lil bit of water an hour after the op. God we felt helpless for not being able to help and soothe u, waiting for that one hour to pass was really suffering and macam biasa, mama cried, yes i cried for i couldnt even do anything to release your pain and suffers. An hour passed, and we gave u 1 oz of plain water, after seeing u not vomitted, we gave u another 6 oz of milk and after finishing ur milk, u finally fell asleep. U woke up after 1.5hr of sleep, and after that mama's strong son became normal again. U smiled, u giggled, u played and run all over the room...and yeah mama doesnt think ppl would know that this child was actually just finished his op ehhehe...terima kasih ya allah.

Alhamdulillah, ur apetites back to normal, u almost finished the large bowl of fish porridge that they served u during lunch n dinner time. U walked and run inside-outside the room, u watched tv as usual, u talked and strike a conversation with us as usual, and yes everything was back to normal. But the suffering came again everytime the nurses came for dressing ur wound. Mama hopes u can bear the pain for the next 1-2 weeks everytime we need to go for dressing ok. Do u know that the doc and nurses actually praised u? they said u were such a very strong boy, u never cried when the nurse took a sample of ur blood, u never cried and struggled when they gave u medicines, and u didnt even struggled to free yourselves everytime they did dressing. They said other boys might already kicking and jumping out of the bed when the nurses were about to do the dressing and u, the brave boy of mine, never did that. u see how strong u are? we both are very proud of u :)

Ok, mama has to stop now...u make sure to behave and dont create trouble to your abah ok. and u must finish the ikan haruan soup that mama made for u this morning. I shall tell you that u'll be on the ikan haruan menu for the whole one week ahead hehe...but it tastes good trust me, tambah2 mama yg masak lagikla sedappp!
Recapping this whole story really saddened me, and mama actually cried a few times when i wrote this...semoga anak mama tabah slalu! mama ngan abah sayanggggggggg idlan! And thank u so much to everyone out there, for the calls, smses, messages, prayers, etc...really appreciate that :)