Gravida 5, Para 3 (+1)

....as written on the front page of my yellow-colored prenatal book.

I didn’t survive my previous gravida 2, God knows well what’s best for its servant and we accepted it wholeheartedly without much questions. Then came my cheeky and handsome little Firas to add more colors to our lives, followed by baby Ammar, who still becomes my lil baby until today, well at least until his real ‘adik baby’ borns into this world.

So they are my 3 little boys who made us smiles and laugh during their sweet n angelic behavior, the same that made us scream and mad over their tantrums n whatnots. 

The current gravida 5 has its own challenge. Migraine, nausea, tiredness…these 3 becomes my best buddies ever since I figured out I am expecting another baby. I didn’t vomited, I have no problem eating any food, I have no problem to cook, but to my surprise I lose some kilos for the past 3 months. I got migraine attack (or at least headache) almost every day, which I tried my best to avoid taking paracetamol during this early stage, that makes the headache worsen and lasted for days. On certain days I surrendered and took the paracetamol, if not I don’t think I’ll be able to leave the bed, go to the office and continue my usual routines like other normal people. Oh I just don’t like this hormonal change in the body, and pray that this will not prolong until the 2^nd trimester.

Back in kampung during raya, it seems like most of hubby’s relatives already knew I am pregnant. When we went to a relative house in Sg Petani, hubby’s cousin even asked ‘so dah brape bulan nih?’ Obviously they didn’t see my tummy cause it is still flat (tak tipu tau hehe), but surprisingly the story of ‘Yati getting preggie again’ spread faster than I thought! Malunya!!

The pressure that I got this time is different. If during Ammar’s time I am ALL OK if it is a boy (again!), but this time it seems that everybody (well at least almost everyone that I bumped into) is hoping it is a GIRL. Especially my mom and mil…and Idlan…and Firas…well everyone! To be honest, I am redha and pasrah if it turns out to be a boy, but the thought of revealing the baby’s gender to umi, mak and the rest scares me a bit. Harapan menggunung dari mereka I tell you. But again Allah knows best, and me as the one that is carrying this tiny lil creature in my body only hope that he or she is healthy and complete, and that my pregnancy and later the journey towards labor is smooth without any complications. That’s what I’ve been hoping and praying in each of my du’a.

I have a friend who have 4 girls and now finally is expecting a boy for her fifth pregnancy. I have a colleague who has 4 straight boys and then only followed by two girls. I have a friend who has 3 boys and that’s it. So what’s the big deal if my fourth one turns out to be a boy (again)? me and hubby has decided that this will be our last one…and still both of us are OK if it is a BOY.

So lil baby, whether you are a boy or girl, mama and abah still loves you unconditionally. And because of that, pls grow healthily inside your mommy’s tummy ok!