My 4mo baby Irfan

My special baby insya Allah will undergo his 2nd surgery nx Monday..a procedure called  tongue lip adhesion. It wasnt an easy decision for both of us, but we hope that it is going to be the last one, and that it will be a success to improve his breathing.

Irfan has turned 4mo, which means he had spent the last 2mo in the hospital ever since his supra surgery.

Me? honestly i am still struggling to find the courage that irfan needs from his mother. I find myself to be happy at certain days, but most of the times i am at my lowest point. Being away from home, separated fr my 3 other boys, and having to see the condition of my poor Irfan 24by7, it is really painful. It breaks my heart, day n night. I know i wouldnt be able to persevere, if it is not bec of my dear hubby who keeps on being positive n stay on my side throughout this trial period.

Irfan sayang, maafkan mama sebab terlalu lemah yer. Mama akan cuba kuat demi Irfan. Moga Allah sembuhkan sayang mama sepenuhnya amin...