30 October 2010

Ginvera warehouse sales

From today until tomorrow, held at its warehouse in Tmn Sutera.

Hubby went there alone, with a reference list provided by me :p

And guess what, i never thought he'd came back home with all these stuffs, men nowadays are pretty good in buying household stuffs (including women's) don't you think so? In fact in our case, he's doing a lot more better than me hoho...can't really remember when was the last time i did the groceries thingy, harga pampers & susu anak pun brape kali tanye cik abang :p

Here goes his pick for the day - floor cleaner, shower scrub, 2in1 laundry liquid n softener, facial foam & scrub, hair oil, liquid hand wash, and cleaner for windows/table, etc. Total damage RM66.

29 October 2010

First month check-up

Berat Ammar 3.9kg (tambah 900g).
Berat mama - biarlah rahsia hehe

Petikan 'conversation' bersama doktor:
Fully bf ke?
Aku jawab yer.
Doc sambung: baby kecikla, berat tak banyak naik. Tapi still ok. Nanti akan masuk keje ke?
Aku jawab yer.
Doc reply: Kalau berat baby tak byk naik nanti, top up dgn formula ok.
Aku cuma mengangguk, dan senyum (walaupun dlm hati sangat panas).
Doc sambung balik....tapi mungkin sebab genetik sama kot, ikut mamanya.

Oh kali ni aku rasa cool balik.

Ammar sayang, make sure next month naik byk sket yer...kalau jumpa dgn doktor ni lagi harus mama kena bebel lagik hukhuk

Abah kata...takperla, doktor laki tak paham sgt kot pasal bf.
Dan mama cuba pujuk hati...mamat ni tak kawin lagi kot!

Anyway Ammar menangis kejap time kena jab. Tapi tak sekuat nangis time ambil darah check jaundice dulu :p

Dan mama, alhamdulillah post natal check up sumer ok...rahim sihat, no cyst whatsoever, cuma pap smear kena postpone next month sebab darah nifas masih belum kering.

Mama mintak pil contraceptive yg tidak menjejaskan susu...Dr Kham prescribe Noriday.
2 strips costs us RM39, mahal kan dahla PM Care tak cover! hoho

28 October 2010

EBM stock

Untuk tatapan Farra...as requested.

Stok EBM pada hari ke-30. Mula start pumping pada hari ke-10, lepas Ammar discharged dr hospital sbb jaundice. Setiap container ada 3oz...adala dlm 50 bekas kot, so total EBM approx 150oz. Tak sebanyak yg ku dpt ketika zaman Firas dulu...
http://yatipruzz.blogspot.com/2008/11/my-kids.html

Tak tahulah sama ada mmg production sikit, atau sebab Ammar slalu melekap...yg pasti aku cuma pump bila Ammar tido lama sket, kalau tidak jgn harap. Siang slalunya tak berjaya pump...sebab dia tido kejap2 dan akan hisap. Selalunya pump one side saja, one session dptla dlm 1.5oz..at most 2oz. Sangat sikit!

Apa2 pun, ku akan terus berusaha! Target nak kumpul lagi 70 container dlm masa sebulan lagi ni...harap2 berjaya.

Wish me luck yer!!




Ammar 1 month


Ammar: me tgh lapar tapi mama sibuk nak tekan kamera huhu
Mama: Hmm kadang nampak cam Idlan, kadang tgk cam rupa Firas. Pepe pon konfem rupa abang2 dia :p

He's already 1 month today, how time flies!


Which also means another month left before i'm back to work sigh*


We're going for a check up tomorrow...can't wait to step onto the scale and watch the reading :)
Pagi nasi lemak, lunch nasi putih, malam nasi putih...huuu tak serupa org pantang!

As part of the one-month celebration, i feel like not eating the dull-home-cooked-meal today.
So hubby asked whether i'd like to have mc d, kfc, nandos, kenny's or anything.
Well, i finally answered, nasi goreng daging merah Andaman!

27 October 2010

black out

It was black out last night in our housing area, lasted for about 2 hours from 12.30am.
The first thing that occured in my mind, gosh my ebm!
Hubby tried to call TNB to no avail, the lines were soooo bz.
After the dreaded 2 hours, I was already thinking to transport the ebm to someone's house.
Dah terfikir rumah Zarid, Kak Tie, Zue, etc. But then again, it just doesn't make sense to ring people at 2am in the morning!

Lucky the provider managed to fix it before 3am.
Syukur :)

26 October 2010

1. Perihal Ammar
- Dah hampir seminggu pasang buai, kadang ok, kadang tak membantu pun. Yg pasti, kena tangguk lama sokmo. Bila paksa tidur meniarap, lagilah marah si kecik ni..diangkat2 kepalanya yg masih belum kuat tu sambil menjerit.
Hmm...mama pasrah jela.
Kata org, kecik susah jaga...dah besar esok senang dijaga. Macam si abang ngah nyer :p

2. Borak dgn umi pasal cuti2 tahun depan. Umi kata kalau Beijing dia nak ikut (walaupun dah penah pegi..kata Umi dia suke sgt tpt tu!). Kalau Hong Kong, pun dia nak ikut! Best ni, kalau Umi, Pa & Adik join sekali, ada orang boleh tolong jaga kekanak berdua tu jadi mama boleh concentrate dekat Ammar jer :) Jadi di waktu2 lapang ni, mama ambil kesempatan baca thread forum pasal dua tempat ni. Yang penting, kena watch out AA punyer promo :p

Arrr the thought about vacation really lights up my day!

24 October 2010

cuti-cuti mode berangan

Let's put aside my work story and move on to another topic.
We're nearing the end of yr 2010, approaching the month of December, means it's holiday time for most people (but not me obviously hukhuk).
I think we're not going anywhere for the next two months, yes at least not until next year.
I don't think the boss will approve should i wish to extend my confinement leave.
What more with the additional work loads coming in...surely it's a big NO NO to him.

Back to the topic, my eldest is asking for us to go to 'Pulau' again.
His brother, an avid fan of aeroplane i'd say, is showing signs of requesting his mama & abah to go somewhere, boarding the plane.
Lucky my lil Ammar is still too small to demand for anything :p Kalau tidak harus pening kami!

Well, i don't think we can afford for an expensive oversea trip next year, considering the additional expenses awaiting ahead especially when our eldest is entering his primary.

As such, a trip to 'Pulau' is quite reasonable and can be considered to be IN the list.
Rumetku Ijah, sila take note yer...awak organizer kan kan??? :) Make sure buat time cuti sekolah tau :)

But how do we go about the 'aeroplane' request?
Hubby has gave a hint, it must be somewhere where you can broaden and enrich your knowledge about the values, cultures and whatnots of other people.
It must have some (or maybe a lot) of scenic places that you can treasure and appreciate, and not places where you bunk in your money and do nothing other than shopping n shopping!

Me, being an obedient wife, somehow kind of agree this time.
Better sure to make it a budget holiday, else someone might cancel the plan altogether hoho.

We were thinking of Beijing. Cheap, easier to find halal food, loads of tourist attraction, and most importantly i can picture myself carrying Ammar with my newly-purchased SSC climbing the great wall of China! Berangan sungguh haha jgn marah...berangan tak rugi ok!

Any other suggestion peeps?
Remember, it must be cheap, and not a shopping heaven for tourist.

p/s: jeles ada org tu dah plan nak ke Bandung, Medan, New Delhi, etc...:p

22 October 2010

new tasks yet no time?

An email informing about the new Purchasing Group distributed to .All is out already this evening.
That means another new tasks awaiting ahead for me.
More tasks, yet no additional staff to assist.

One of my staff has transferred to a new division.
Another one is already tight with the PO thingy.
My last one, who i trusted most and can be depended upon, is shifting to the North very soon.
Her place shall be taken over with a newbie in the procurement-related thingy. That means a short crash-course for her on the overall tasks...'short' because i myself is juggling and struggling to finish my work within the limited 8hrs in the office. This time around, i dont think bringing back home the office work is an option, especially when you're expecting to wake up few times (or maybe many times!) at night to feed your baby.

My oh my.
Is this the right time to update my CV and make a new shift?
Again???
hahaha tak habis2 melompat!

But again, i'm serious ok.
Just can't take it anymore.

Ke jadi lecturer jer? Flexi pun flexi.
Tapi....

malas buat PHD!
hukhuk

* Dilema ibu dlm pantang.........

20 October 2010

rambling

Perangai kuat melekap si Ammar bertambah parah. Dari pagi-tgh hari cuma sejam je tidur...tu pun kejap2. Bila letak, tidur 10 minit dia jaga balik. Menduga keimanan mama sungguh.

Disebabkan penat+malas, mama masak spaghetti carbonara je hari ni....sempoi, dahla pakai carbonara tin Prego, senang main instant2 jer mama di zaman serba moden ini...bertuah la sape jadi anak2 mama :p

19 October 2010

plugged ducts...

or congested breast as the doc terms it.

Tak sangka boleh kena, memandangkan Ammar kuat melekap, dan aku sangat konsisten dgn rutin pumping.

Bermula dgn tgh hari Ahad, tiba2 B belah kanan rasa sakit sangat..nak angkat tangan pun sakit. Jam 3pm, tiba2 temperature shot up, dan aku menggigil satu badan. Horror rasa, tak penah demam sampai menggigil camni sekali. Terus telan ponstan, dan cuba tidur. Lepas 2 jam, demam dah kebah, tapi B masih sakit. Paling perit, bila time feeding dan pump, masya Allah punyalah seksa nak menahan sakit tu! Sebenarnya last week dah kena sekali, di bhgn bawah. Sangkaanku, kena gigitan benda sebab ade sedikit tanda merah...maka memula kusapu gel Gamat. Bila takde effect, aku terfikir mungkinkah ini bengkak susu? Pruzz pula suggest untuk cuba sapu Fobancort (antibiotik cream firas...guna bila dia kena gigitan, merah2, naik rashes, etc). Lepas 2 hari, sakit tu hilang.

Jadi bila kena lagi kali ni, ku sangka betul la kot kena gigitan benda/serangga! Sebab ada two spots where the area is swelling red. Tapi sakit kali ni berganda rasanya. Tgh mlm Isnin, jam 2.30am sekali lagi aku demam dan menggigil. Telan la ponstan lagi sekali...after 1-2hours demam kebah. Pagi tu, kami ke hospital an Nur...tu pun setelah puas Pruzz pujuk suruh jumpa doc. Ikutkan hatiku memang malas..sbb org ramai. Klinik berdekatan pula takde doktor perempuan. Lepas doc check, katanya ini adalah bengkak susu..bukan kena gigit :p Mujurlah cepat datang check, kalau kes teruk B akan mengeras macam batu, dan bernanah di dalam kerana susu tersumbat akan menyebabkan bakteria infection. Seramnya dengar! Bila bernanah, akan menjadi 'abscess', dan prosedur utk mengorek dan mengeluarkan nanah tu perlu dibuat di bilik OT!

Hari ni masuk hari ke-3, bengkak dan merah masih ada..tapi sakit dah berkurangan. Aku diberi antibiotik, ubat tahan sakit, ubat bengkak dan uphamol. Doc juga pesan suruh letak kobis sejuk lama2 utk memudahkan pengaliran susu dan mengelakkan 'duct' tersumbat. Terima kasih kpd hubby yg memujukku ke klinik...kalau ikut perasaan malasku ntah apalah yg akan jadi huhu. Berbaloi penantian selama 2 jam di An Nur :p

15 October 2010

online shopping

My first online shopping on the 17th day of confinement, here goes the list:


1 x Dry Shelf of Feeding Bottle
1 x Little Bean Sterilizer and Warmer Combo Pack + Nuby Bottle
1 x Ambre Comfort Maternity and Nursing Bra (2 pcs)
1 x Bumble Bee Breast Milk Bottle (5oz) 8pcs + FREE 2 Bottles
1 x Japan Uneck Elegant Nursing top (Purple)


Got myself a free shipping for purchase above RM300 :)

Source: www.enjoybreastfeed.com

Next wishlist - a SSC!

14 October 2010

Mommy's inner thoughts

1. How i wish a chicken/fish soup can taste as good as ayam/ikan goreng kicap.
- dah muak ok telan sup. I tend to eat a bigger portion of rice whenever i cook masak kicap, but with soup, arghhh it just tastes very plain and dull, unless if somebody wants to 'tapau' for me sup from restoran UK...kalau tu mkn everyday pun acik sanggup! :)

2. There is no limit or constraints (read: fund) when it comes to online shopping...klik klik klik, check out and that's it! :p

3. A straight 5-6 hours of restful sleep during night time. Yes that sounds far from possible since Ammar wakes up quite frequent for feeding, plus mommy's obligation to have 1-2x pumping session.

4. Outing to shopping mall looking for new nursing apparels, and new office outfit which serves more like a motivation to go back to office ......sigh :(

5. Last but not least, a short trip to SCC and indulge meself with it's yummylicious scones & durian pancakes!

Dream on mama! After all it doesn't cost you a penny :p

13 October 2010

Pouch sling or SSC?

Seeing the wide selection of designs and fabrics available, it's kind of rambang mata isnt it? i just cant decide which one suits Ammar (read: his mama) best. Another thing, whether to opt for a pouch, or SSC? SSC no doubt makes the mommy or daddy looks cool, which becomes part of the reason for you to have one :) A pouch is simpler to wear than a sling (prolly based on my imagination yer, not talking by experience), and obviously does not require much adjustment. What's important, nursing on the go is possible without you having to spare for extra cover/poncho/hood to cover the B.

Before that, let's drool the pics together. Which one do you like most...or to be exact, which one is suitable for me? hehe


black n white - simple, easier to match with blouses of any colors


somehow or rather i prefer this. The straps are in brown, which is my favourite color, while the flowers are very colorful, looks chic and cute don't u think so?

Anyway these are some in-stock design for a standard SSC from snuggbaby.com (the owner is Liza, Terry's wife).

Rocking your baby

These past few days Ammar has been quite 'cranky', day and night. Each nursing or feeding time takes me approximately 1.5-2 hours before i can put him on the bed. In between that he'll sleep for like 10 minutes, nurse, sleep, wake up and nurse again, sleep, and the trend continues for 2 hours before he really dozes off to lalaland. A simple ikan goreng, sup sayur and masak nasi can take me about 2 hours to finish cooking, which at times i wish i can just order from mangkuk tingkat, dominos or anything so that i can close the kitchen. Everything must be done at a rather faster pace, unlike during his first 7 days where he slept for a straight 2-3 hours and mama has all the luxuries to do so many things (including online surfing :p) thru out the day. There were few times where i got a proper sleep for only 3 hours, the rest of the night was spent holding, cuddling, and 'dodoi' him. My nipp*es hurt and sore due to the fact he sucks for quite a long time.

Hubby voiced out the idea to put him inside a swing, but i kind of reluctant knowing the fact that the nursery does not has swing. As much as possible i don't want to train him to sleep inside swing, else the caretaker might have problem later to sleep him. Hubby then took out a rocker, which was bought during Idlan's time. The first time i put him inside and rocks him, he slept for a straight 2 hours. Second time, the rocker just did not work for him anymore haha. Anyway i must keep on trying for the next few days, hoping he'll loves being rocked!

12 October 2010

Myth or Fact?

about jaundice amongst newborns...

1. Jemur bawah matahari pagi
- I kind of believe in this since 'berjemur' and phototherapy has some kind of similary don't you agree? Both are using 'light' (as for the phototherapy the bilirubin is converted to some forms so as to enable it to be removed from the body. So far i've jemur Ammar twice, after he got discharged from hospital. Last Sunday his jaundice level increased a bit, about 11.1mg from 10.8mg, which is still below the alert/threshold level. Tomorrow we'll be going to the hospital again to take his reading, hope it'll reduce this time.

2. Minum susu kambing
- I've had received few recommendations from friends/relatives about taking goat's milk to reduce your baby's jaundice. Not sure how true it is, but heck i never try this to any of my sons. My paed is strongly against it, and i've come across one article in newspaper saying goat's milk is difficult to digest, hence is not suitable to newborn bowel system. Any comment?

3. Minum air masak
- Never try this either, since i think and believe mom's milk is good enough for the baby's immune system. I'm not sure how plain water can works to reduce the bilirubin level, and i'm just too plain lazy to google for the info :p Anyone has idea on this...pls do share ok!

09 October 2010

nursing the baby...and babies!

As promised in my previous entry, let's take a look how challenging and difficult it is, being a staff nurse/nurse aid/assistant nurse in the baby's nursery. This is prolly based on my short, few hours observation of staying in the nursery while feeding Ammar.

1. There are 2 staff nurse in one shift, and they work nearly 12 hours on every shift...very long isn't it?
2. They bath the babies as early as 5am, what a shocking revelation hoho! Deep down inside I was dying to ask 'why so early', but tried my best to keep my mouth shut...probably they have their own reason tho i can't really think of any :p
3. They bath the baby one after another. When finish bathing, the other nurse will take care the rest..put on the cloth, diaper, apply baby oil and lotion to the body, and last but not least, comb the baby's hair! Even i myself didn't comb my son's hair haha
4. When the babies poo, they will push the baby's cot to the sink, wet the tissue with running water and clean it. Save cost on wet tissue right?
5. Formula milk for the new born is prepared in many bottles in advance and is refrigerated before use. I guess they made it this way to save time, and of course to avoid the long crying and wailing from the babies :p
6. Imagine when there are 10-11 babies in the nursery at a time. When one cries, followed by another and more, the nurse can only attend to 2 babies and the rest will be left crying. Some babies will cry until they stop by themselves. Hectic and tense, that's the fact.
7. Babies make different sound, and their voice indeed differs one from another. There is this one baby girl who sounds very soft, that i can hardly hear her crying.
8. You really need to be super-mentally-and-emotionally-strong if you wanna work in this field. Make sure you are sounds-proof too, and can persevere under the endless stressed. Honestly, i salute the nurses, their jobs are tough, and apparently it is not easy taking care of more than one baby at a time!

Moral of the story, bersyukurlah dengan kerja kita sekarang ni :)

08 October 2010

work during confinement?

Got few sms from my user this morning, asking if he can go to my house just to get my signature for this 'one report'.

Well, i was one of the Evaluation Committee, and i've replied to the rest of the committee members that i'll sign the report once i get back to the office. Nevertheless there is this one 'GM' whom acts as an Approver that i assume does not understand, or refuse to understand the meaning of 'maternity leave' or 'confinement', who still insist that i sign the report before he proceeds with the approval.

Gosh i just couldn't believe there exists people like this.

Some people are just plain stup*d, don't you guys agree?

I advise my user, just tell him i dah balik kampung....kat KEDAH.
Takkan dia nak suruh u datang Kedah kot amik signature i??

Anyway, i made an effort to clear my mailbox at least 2-3x a week, just to ensure i keep all those' important' emails. Tried my best to refrain from replying emails, but exceptions given especially for the urgent and important ones. Kesian jugak pada users2 yg baik, whom i've been dealing with for quite a long time. As for phone calls, sorry yer vendor2 sekalian i just dont feel like answering your calls. Please let me savor my short 2-months leave, bonding with my lil Ammar :)

07 October 2010

Ammar & jaundice

Alhamdulillah Ammar dah discharged pagi tadi dari An Nur. Warded since 5pm, hari Selasa.
Sebelum tu dah 3x kami ke hospital utk ambil bacaan jaundice dia...tapi masih dlm paras terkawal. Cuma selasa tu, tiba2 jaundice dia spike ke bacaan 16.8, which above the threshold (>14) dan terus ditahan diwad utk fototerapi. Bila diberitahu yg wad semua dah penuh, aku dah mula mengalir air mata...buntu memikirkan macam mana nak bf Ammar. Husband check dekat Az zahrah & KPJ Kajang, pon wad penuh. Prosedur An Nur, untuk kes macam ni si ibu dikira sebagai 'lodger' (bukan patient), dan jika ada bilik kosong pun, ibu kena keluar jika ada patient lain yg nak masuk. Lagilah sebak bila dgr macam tu. Lama kami berfikir, siap terfikir kalau duduk di hotel berhampiran ok tak...tapi leceh juga sebab nanti pruzz kena ulang alik hantar aku ke hospital, dan bukannya kita tahu Ammar tu nak feeding setiap brape jam kan? Ikutkan hati nak je aku drive sendiri, tapi sure Umi marah..sbb baru masuk hari ke-7 berpantang.

Akhirnya kami decide untuk stay di An Nur, Ammar masuk nursery utk fototerapi, sementara aku duduk di surau, dan berdoa supaya ada lah bilik yg kosong. Kalau ditakdirkan takde bilik kosong, tidur di surau lah jawabnya. Dari jam 5pm-7pm aku lepak di surau...pruzz balik rumah ambil barang2ku dan pick up kids dari nursery. Dalam lif, terserempak dgn Dr. Kham...aku inform la yg si Ammar kena warded. Dr cakap, "mamanya walaupun muka sedih masih boleh tersenyum". Pruzz boleh pulak sambung.."Dr tak tengok tadi air mata dah bercucuran...."...isk isk jatuh imej aku :p Aku sempat sms kpd Umi ckp Ammar warded (tak nak call, sebab kalau call sure aku menangis punyer!) Tak sampai 5 minit Umi call...dan apa lagi drama air mata dlm surau tu :p Sempat juga aku sms kpd Semah tanya perihal Ariff time warded dulu & inform dia pasal Ammar....again berlinang air mata time bertukar2 sms tu, especially bila Semah punya words tu berbau kata2 simpati...isk aku bila org kesian, lagiklah aku rasa sedih! Memang emosi sgt tidak stabil malam tu huhuhu

Alhamdulillah, jam 7pm bilik ada yg kosong. 4-bedded room pun jadiklah! At least dptlah berbaring dan berehat atas katil. Sepanjang malam tu Ammar bgn byk kali, bila duduk bawah lampu panas...jadi dia kerap dahaga la kots. Ditambah dgn bunyi bising baby2 yg menangis dlm nursery tu, mungkin sebab tu tidur tak lena. Penat juga aku nak berulang alik dari bilik ke nursery, baru nak lelap mata..tiba2 nurse dah panggil ckp Ammar nangis. Kalau dekat rumah Ammar cuma bgn dlm 2-3x, malam tu every 1.5hr dia bgn..kadang tu tak sampai sejam dia dah bgn. Huish mmg lalok kepala aku mlm tu! Itu belum termasuk gangguan dari visitor penghuni ward tu yg sangat bising. Bayangkan jam 12am pun masih ada yg dtg melawat isk isk...mmg tak boleh tidur dgn aman. Tapi terpaksa sabar jelah...adat berkongsi kan :p Malam tu, Pruzz dtg dgn kekanak utk hantar brg2ku..sempatla kami ke restoran Kelisa di hujung hospital utk mkn malam (ni kalau Umi tahu aku dah berjln2 ni sure dia bising :p). Time nak balik, firas menangis....uh uh lagikla mama bertambah emosi! Kata pruzz, firas menangis dari hospital sampailah ke rumah...sampai termuntah dan tertido. Sedey kan!!

Hari Rabu, jaundice Ammar turun ke level 13.5. Fototerapi diteruskan, dan rutinku ulang-alik ke nursery diteruskan. Sepanjang berada di nursery, macam2 perkara baru (tak lupa gosip!) yg dapat ku perhatikan, especially tentang perihal tugas nurse yg menjaga baby2 ni. Tugas dan cabaran2 mereka ni, nanti aku tulis dlm next update yer :)

Dan pagi ni, bacaan jaundice Ammar turun ke level 10.8. Dr Ar kata dah boleh discharge, sebab kalau duduk ward pun tak guna, tak boleh letak bawah lampu kerana menyalahi prosedur. Dr kata let the physiology of his body to work by itself...sbb jaundice ni memang tidak ada treatment lain except fototerapi jika exceed certain threshold. Lain drpd itu, memang kena berharap agar hati baby tu dpt function properly dan cepat mature untuk membuang excess bilirubin dlm darah dia. Selepas 3 hari, kena pergi follow up utk ambil level jaundice lagi sekali...harap2 tak naik dah lepas ni. Aku masih risau, memandangkan Ammar didiagnos ada G6PD Deficiency (yg ni akan ku ceritakan nanti) yg mana dia ada potential utk mendpt jaundice yg tinggi. Apa2 pun, semua ni dugaan dari Allah...dari Dia lah dtgnya penyakit ini..dan kepada Dia jugalah kita memohon utk sembuhkan penyakit ini.

Apa pun, alhamdulillah lega dpt pulang ke rumah!

Betul kata k.Tini...duduk di hospital, tak payah buat kerja rumah, tak payah layan karenah anak2 yg lain, makan minum free hospital kasik....

tapi bagiku rumah juga yg selesa.

Being maidless, dan berpantang sorang2 di rumah...hakikat penat tu memang tidak dpt dinafikan! Kena basuh kain, sidai kain, cuci pinggan, masak, uruskan baby...uishh byklah keje...tapi dgn bantuan hubby yg ringan tulang dan sangat memahami, insya Allah semua tu pasti bisa diatur! Lagipun, confirm cepat kurus lepas ni :p

04 October 2010

at last it's finalized!


Ammar - Day 1...few hours after birth


kecik comel je - 3kg

Name: Muhammad Ammar Fitri bin Mohd Fairuz
Ammar - yang memakmurkan/yang kuat iman/yang lemah lembut
Fitri - semulajadi/fitrah
DOB: 29 September 2010 (20 Syawal 1431 Hijrah)
TOB: 3.17am
POB: Hospital Pakar An-Nur, Bangi

Mama : ni baby Ammar...
Firas : bibi Aman, bibi Aman....

p/s: kadang2 Firas check perut mama, kemudian dia tanya...bibi aner?
Mama pun jawab...tu baby sleep, dlm bilik. Lepas tu dia tersenyum sorang2 :p

03 October 2010

Bila susu ibu tidak keluar....

Hati ibu mana yang tidak gundah gulana jika susu ibu tidak keluar lepas bersalin betul tak?
Itulah yg berlaku selepas aku selamat bersalinkan Ammar.
Selepas 2 jam Ammar keluar, midwife bawa Ammar utk aku susukan di dalam bilik recovery OT tu. Tapi susu masih belum ada, dan Ammar pun masih syiok tidur di alam mimpi. Aku pun takdela resah sgt sebab badan masih penat.

Jam 8am++, iaitu 5 jam selepas melahirkan Ammar, aku sudah mula menuam B**** dgn tuala suam untuk stimulate pengeluaran susu. Itulah kerjaku sepanjang berada di hospital dari pagi hingga ke petang. Ada orang lepas bersalin terus tidur sepuas-puasnya dan rehat, tapi aku bekerja keras menuam B sebab risau susu tak keluar. Nurse ada membawa Ammar ke bilik utk disusukan, tapi Ammar tak berapa cooperative, dia tidur jer. Langsung tak berusaha nak menghisap pun :p Di nursery, mereka langsung tidak memberikan Ammar susu formula, sebab aku dah pesan nak 'fully breastfeed'. Lepas Asar, aku dah discharged, bermakna sejak lahir jam 3.17am hingga ke petang, Ammar langsung tidak minum apa-apa. Time ni tahap kerisauan ku masih minimal, sebab Ammar asyiklah tidur...takdelah nangis2 kelaparan :p

Di rumah, again aku berusaha keras menuam lagi...tapi masih tidak keluar walau setitik pun. Malam, Ammar sudah mula bangun dan menangis, jadi akhinya aku dan Umi ku menyuap Ammar dgn susu formula dengan sudu kecil (cilok susu Firas hehe). Minum dgn sudu sikit-sikit, jadi tak puas sangatla kot...sebab tu malam pertama berkali-kali Ammar bangun. Jam 3am barulah dia tidur lena hingga ke pagi. Mujurla Umi tidur bersamaku malam tu, jadi Umi lah yg bangun byk kali untuk menyuap susu kpd si kecil. Aku mmg tak larat dah, badan terlalu penat mungkin penat bersalin pagi tadi masih berbaki. Aku guna sudu dan tidak memberi botol kpd Ammar, ni lesson learnt masa zaman Idlan dulu. Time Idlan, aku cepat sangat memberikan botol, lalu dia terus syiok minum botol sehingga refuse kan direct feeding!

Keesokan hari (Day 2), waktu pagi tu mak bidan datang mengurut buat kali pertama. Aku mmg sgt berharap lepas urut susu akan keluar. Sebab time Firas dulu susu hanya keluar pada hari ke-3 lepas bersalin, tu pun lepas mak bidan urut. Kali ni, lepas urut susu masih belum keluar. Oh hati mama memang dah risau giler. Jadi rutin menuam diteruskan, dan tak lupa aku turut menyikat B*** dan meletakkan kobis dekat situ. Sedikit sebanyak aku sudah mula rasa stress, tapi kucuba pujuk hati sebab aku yakin susu memang akan keluar, sama ada lambat atau cepat itu sahaja. Penat memang penat, Umi pesan suruh rehat sama...tapi tiada istilah rehat bagiku selagi susu belum keluar! Jenuh menyikat B sampaikan aku hampir tertidur hehe. Sementara itu, Ammar masih ku berikan susu formula melalui sudu kecil.

Akhirnya, susu mula keluar sikit waktu petang (actually bukan susu yer tapi kolostrum)....dan by the time malam, alhamdulillah pengeluaran susu semakin banyak, dan Ammar pula nampak gaya boleh tahan terer bab menghisap ni. Cuma kadang tu mula2 nak latch-on dia akan mengamuk, tapi lama2 dia ok.

Jadi buat ibu-ibu di luar sana yg mengalami masalah yg sama seperti aku, jangan risau dan stress sangat ok. Yakinlah yg susu badan anda ada, dan akan keluar...cuma buat sesetengah orang, susu tu hanya akan keluar selepas stimulation dilakukan. Yang penting, kena usaha secara berterusan, yakin, berdoa dan bertawakal kepada Allah...insya Allah rezeki si kecil anda pasti ada!

01 October 2010

kisah bersalin baby Ammar...

Walaupun full name baby masih belum finalize (letih nak fikir sebenarnya), mama nak share dulu pengalaman bersalin si Ammar ni yer. Kali ni agak tragik juga kisahnya, sama macam Firas dulu (kes labor room penuh, sakit dlm ward).

28 Sept (Selasa)
Check-up dgn Dr. Kham selepas 2 hari passed my due date. Doc check bukaan sudah 3cm, dan tetiba doc tanyer...nak bersalin esok tak? Aduhhh, terus jem otak tak boleh fikir. Macam Firas dulu la, tetiba keluar soalan cepu emas, awak nak induce tak esok, so that mama and baby boleh share same birthdate? Back to kisah Ammar, doc kata dia suggest induce sebab bukaan dah ada, baby dah overdue, nevertheless air ketuban masih cukup, baby pun takdelah besar sgt. Terpulang pada mama nak decide sama ada nak tunggu lagi few days...atau induce. So lepas fikir 2-3 minit dgn Pruzz (dan considering the mounting pressure due to sms/call dari sedara mara/frens/jiran yg tanye "ko dah bersalin belum??") aku pun cakap "OK". Tapi doc suggest untuk tunggu sakit natural datang hari ni, dia stimulate sikit 'bawah' tu...kalau still tak datang contraction baru dia induce pagi esok (Rabu). After lunch doc suruh warded terus supaya nurse boleh monitor. Doc pesan lepas stimulate ni darah akan keluar, so jangan panik.

Kami pon pergi ke hospital utk booking bilik, malangnya single room semua penuh. Kata depa after lunch atau petang baru available, so kami just booking dulu. Kemudian kami ke Seri Abim, membayar yuran Tahun 1 idlan. Lepas byr, kereta tak boleh start...bateri keta kong rupanya! Terpaksala tumpang kereta seorang couple ni utk jump-start keta :) Kemudian ke kedai berdekatan, tukar bateri kereta, lunch di Mc D pekena sundae chocolate buat kali terakhir, dan ke MMU sebab Pruzz kena amik kertas exam. Pukul 3++, pulang ke rumah...kemas balik beg barang baby dan kekanak tu sebab semua akan berkampung di hospital ptg tu :) Masih tidak ada tanda2 contraction, adus berdebar sungguh sbb aku punyala berharap agar sakit tu datang cepat!

Jam 5pm++, kami amik kekanak dari tadika...dan off terus ke hospital. Alhamdulillah dpt bilik single, jadi malam tu kami anak beranak semua melepak dlm ward. 7.30pm, Dr Kham datang melawat, aku kata langsung takde rasa sakit. Doc suruh tunggu, dan katanya kalau tak sakit malam ni esok kena induce dalam jam 7.30am. Jam 8++, nurse dtg utk check CTG, mmg sah takde contraction hihi

9.00pm - Solat isyak. Dan aku macam terasa seperti ada contraction, tapi tak pasti. Lama lepas tu, cakap kat Pruzz 'ye kot kite dah start contraction!' Rasanya jam 10++ aku panggil nurse utk check CTG, tapi contraction belum kuat lagi kot. Pesan nurse, kalau rasa sakit kuat inform derang, derang akan serahkan result CTG kpd mak bidan, so that mak bidan boleh check bukaan (jika perlu). Rasanya contraction yg 'tidak berapa kuat' tu dlm 3 jam++ kot. Jam 11 lebih nurse bwk turun result CTG kpd mak bidan...kata nurse, mak bidan akan panggil turun ke labor room jika contraction kuat (labor room penuh time tu). Meanwhile jam 1130pm Pruzz pergi ke ampang utk fetch Umi, so that Umi boleh temankan kekanak di ward bila pruzz temankan aku di labor room. Jam 1230am, umi sampai di ward...so umi tido di atas toto dgn kekanak, pruzz tido atas kerusi, while aku terbaring atas katil, menahan sakit contraction dlm hati dan senyap2 (tak boleh jerit/mengerang nnt kekanak terjaga...malu kat umi sama hihi). Everytime contraction dtg, aku menarik nafas/atau menahan nafas (ni tips utk sesiapa yg tidak mengambil ubat tahan sakit yer, it really helps you)...kaki tendang2 jugakla kat tepi katil tu hehe.

29 Sept (Rabu)
Rasanya sakit yg kuat bermula jam 1 lebih. Tu pun aku masih kuatkan hati menahan sakit, tak inform umi atau Pruzz sbb depa dah tido. Nak panggil nurse pun macam teragak2..last2 tahan jela sakit sorang2 :p Konon nak try teknik hypnosis, tapi tak berjaya sehhh. Sakitnya Allah saja yg tahu...tapi sebab dah merasa sakit time Firas dulu macam mana...so tahan jelah selagi mampu.

Jam 2am, aku tekan butang panggil nurse sbb rasanya dah lama giler aku menahan sakit nih (5 jam... ikut firas dulu aku sakit dlm 6 jam lebih sebelum bersalin)...ckp nurse contraction dah kuat sangat ni. Nurse check CTG, then 2-3 kali nurse dtg cakap derang dah panggil mak bidan tapi mak bidan tgh attend satu kes yg ada complication. Umi & Pruzz cuba comfortkan aku time ni. Lebih 1/2 jam menunggu, barula mak bidan sampai ke ward, dan check bukaan. Dan aku tgk mak bidan cakap dekat nurse, 'cepat2 ready turun ke labor room!'

Time ni rasa macam nak pengsan dah (cewahhh exaggerate sket), pastu kena jln plak ke luar bilik utk naik wheel chair, aduhai sakitnya! Turun ke labor room di tkgt 1 jam 3am, tapi aku kemudian diusung ke recovery room utk bilik OT sebab labor room (yang boleh muat utk 3 patient) dah penuh. Aku dipapah utk naik ke atas strecher, dan mereka semua dgn kelam kabutnya menyediakan peralatan. Dr Kham dtg check, bukaan dah 9cm! Dan doc sempat sound mak bidan kenapa tak bwk patient turun awal! Kemudian doc lari keluar sekejap utk attend patient yg ada complication tu, dan suruh tunggu 10cm baru meneran. Tiba2 aku dah rasa macam kepala baby dah ada kat hujung, tapi the second mak bidan tahan kepala baby tu..sakitnya lahai (macam kes Semah la nih). Aku pulak menjerit...saya rasa macam nak keluar dah niiii (maybe ayat berbeza kot tak igt dah yer :p). Dr Kham datang....dia suruh aku pegang kedua belah kaki, tarik nafas dan push. Malangnya nafas aku tak cukup panjang, after 3x push baru la Ammar keluar melihat dunia tepat jam 3.17am. Berat Ammar - 3kg.

Doc ambil masa yg agak lama utk jahit perinium ku yg terkoyak, doc tak sempat potong, maka koyakan tu tidak cantik katanya dan nak jahit pun agak susah (crooked). Aku tanya doc, sebab aku tak pandai teran ke (padahal rasanya aku teran kali ni dah cukup cun, pruzz pon cakap 'mama you did well')...doc kata mungkin sbb keadaan yg kelam kabut, lepas tu sebab kepala baby ditahan dr keluar tadi...sbb tu kots). Time jahit, mak bidan minta maaf kepadaku sebab kelam kabut...tapi mak bidan tu baik, Ammar pun selamat keluar...so aku mmg tak kisah. Doc pun sound direct dekat mak bidan...again aku tak kisah dgn situasi tadi. Tapi bila fikir balik, ish mujurla instinct aku tepat and aku sempat ckp kat nurse, kalau inform nurse lambat...buatnya terberanak kat ward adus horror seh!! Doc kata, aku jenis yang cepat dilated towards the end tuh...sbb tu next time mmg kena standby cepat. Masa Firas pun sama, mula2 lambat sangat nak buka, tapi dari 7-10cm tu mmg pantas giler!

Apa2 pun, syukur semuanya selamat. Cumanya kali ni pruzz tak sempat ambil byk video & gambar macam Firas dulu, Ammar cuma ada 1 video je yg pendek...semua berlaku terlalu pantas, tak ready hehe. Tapi yang penting, kali ni aku rasa lebih puas...sbb dpt merasa pengalaman meneran yg sebenar. Macam firas dulu, time 10cm sakit contraction tiba2 hilang...dan aku hanya meneran dgn bantuan mak bidan dan doc. Even bila kepala firas dah keluar sket pun aku masih tak rasa apa2 (rezeki Allah kasi tak sakit time tu).

Lepas selesai jahit, aku rehat atas strecher tu...jam 5am mak bidan bawakan milo secawan, 3 keping biskut cream crackers & ponstan. Mak bidan ada bawakan Ammar utk breastfeed, tapi susu masih tak keluar. Ammar pun relaks tido jer. Jam 6am++, aku dibawa turun ke labor room dgn wheel chair. Sampai di ward aku tido lah kejap sampai 730am then terbangun dan terus tak boleh tido. Petang lepas asar aku dah discharged, dan selamat pulang ke rumah. Ikutkan doc dia suruh stay lagi sehari, tapi kekanak ni kecoh yg amat, nanti terganggu pulak jiran sebelah :p Balik rumah boleh rehat dan lagi selesa betul tak?

So itulah kisah dan pengalaman bersalin Ammar. Terima kasih yer atas doa korang semua :)
Anyway, pendapatku...sakit natural birth dan sakit induce sama je rasanya, jadi tak payahla takut kalau doc suruh induce hihi. Jadi sekarang ni, alhamdulillah aku dah dapat merasa sakit c-sect, sakit induce, dan sakit natural birth. Of course bersalin normal lagi senang drpd c-sect....sebab recovery cepat, kejap je dah boleh berjln laju and stabil :p

Next update - kisah susu yg tidak keluar